New year...

How tired am I of hearing "this year will for sure be better than the last eight "
Ugh...that is such a childish phrase.
Here are a few of my thoughts...

1.Obama is not going to save the world...he is just a man...please quit treating him like he's a god.

2.bush has made mistakes...yes...but may I remind you of the president before him who also made a laughing stock of our country ... Or have we forgotten his weakness and direct lies to us??? I'm pretty sure he was an idiot!

3. Yes Obama is black....and that is a huge thing......but if that and the promise of unxlairified change is all he offers...this country would better be run by a flock of geese.

Christmas

So Christmas is on Thursday and we are suppose to go to my grandparents house............but weather being what it is...I'm starting to doubt thatwill happen....
Normally that would be...whatever...but this time I really want to go....
My hubbu isn't being very nice about it either....
We stall see what may come...I pray we can
It wouldbe nice tosee my family...the last time was thanksgiving last year

I'm back

Okay so here I am again..
Snow snow snow snow is all I see
I love snow

He Provideth...He provideth well!

so much for my last post....I think God planned on humbling me a bit....
Money is tight.....plus its christmas....
we were wondering if we would even get to have a christmas between Jon and I....
today my boss handed me a bag full of goodies and a $100 gift card to the co-op.
SO...we will eat this month:P and we shall eat well.
The Lord provides each and every time...
even if we doubt him.
Thank you Lord for all you do and have done for us....we are most undeserving!

.....*grumble grumble*.....

I WANT CHRISTMAS TO BE OVER!!!!
no no no don't get me wrong I LOVE christmas and i LOVE this season.....but I also love my husband and i'm tired of him getting home at 1:30 in the morning....I hate Fedex.
oh well....I'm single till next year. ..now that i have that out.....
time for something more serious.....
Jon and I are still trying to get pregnant.....
3 months now....I know thats not that long....but it breaks my heart every month when i find out I'm not. I break....and it hurts so bad.
With my family history I am so afraid that it wont be possible....
Month after month it gets worse...
I know and I DO trust that the Lord will take care of us....
but that doesn't always mean that we wont hurt.....
I don't know....

another day another dollar

just home from work....I'm tired. A rather emotionally draining day...but mondays usually are. ugh....
...deep breath....
I am home...
with my christmas tree....
my puppies...
my lunch....
life is good.....
God is good......
thats all i need....

i don't really know....

have you every felt like something big was about to happen....but you had no idea what!?!?
I soo feel that way right now...like something is about to happen in our lifes.....
I wonder what it is....is it good or bad....
I have no idea....
I just have a funny feeling....
I don't know...maybe i'm crazy!

so i am sitting here........first work day between thanksgiving and christmas....
and my hubby is nowhere to be found:(
He gets so busy......
and i will not really get the chance to see him till January....
I'll miss you my darling....
see you next year!

So I thought i'd upload a few pics from thanksgiving....and from those who think it can't be done....there before you is a fully vegan thanksgiving meal:P

okay...so last day of November....can hardly believe it.
This IS the best time of the year in my opinion! I am afraid I'll be missing my Eastern Washington feet and feet of snow though....
I do love snow!
Thanksgiving was great....actually quite nice...i was surprised....
except for the hours BEFORE thanksgiving dinner.....when all the people we drove to Yakima to see magically disappeared....(and I'm still not sure where they went)...It seem they had better things to do:)
anyway....time to focus on Christmas.
I know we have made Christmas into a bunch of tradition....
but i must say....I love tradition!
anyway....I'm off to put up my christmas tree.....
its a miracle I have made it this long without putting it up!

Off to celebrate...

Well the hours are passing....as i sit at home...bags packed...ready and waiting for my hubby to get home so we may make the drive to yakima. Am i looking forward to it....no. I say no only because it seems a long trip for nothing.....seeing we have to be back by friday so that jon can work.
Also....it would seem we are having thanksgiving dinner at my inlaws inlaws......which are quite a carnivorous bunch...making it hard for a vegan like me to enjoy her thanksgiving feast. ugh...my brain is screaming!
oh well...i shall make the best of it.
It is thanksgiving afterall.....and i should be thankful is suppose:P

Well we have had our youngest "child" for about a month now....so I had to post a pic. Our babies.....soooo full of personality:P

Back again...reflecting

Okay I'm back....seems that as I am not yet used to this sight being one of my "regulars" I forgot the password and was to lazy to do anything about it. But i know that writing is soo good for me once i get back into it. So...I will continue in hopes that that love for the written word resurfaces:P

I think that life is just now starting to calm down. I just now feel as though we are starting to settle where we are. We have lived in Mount Vernon since June but is hard when you don't know anyone...I tend to feel isolated. I am a people person and its hard when i don't have any people!
I am thankful that after a year and a half we actually have a church....even though i don't feel totally comfortable yet. Its not that there is anything wrong with it...it just hard to get close to people when you only see the backs of their heads a few hours a week. I long for good friendships.....I really don't do well without them. I have my dearest Abz and Mal, both of which live back in Idaho so its hard being all alone. I love my hubby.....but i need other people too:P

It takes me so long to open up to people.....I think it because i put so much into a relationship....I am not one of those people who can have lots and lots of great relationships and maintain them all. I put my heart and soul into my friendships....because they are that important to me.
There are plenty of women at the church.....but they have all known each other for a while....and its hard to feel like I belong..........I'm working on it thought.

I feel now.....that in my life it is time for me to start over. I think that thats why God allowed us to move here....a fresh start. And I thank Him for that.
Its not that I have spent the last two years hardened...although some people have thought that....its just that I HAD to be the strong one....my family and friends around me NEEDED me to be...I saw that......and I tried to do my best but obviously i didn't go about that quite the right way....I did not pull my strength fully from the Lord.
All the while i was broken inside.....and for fear of letting my loved ones down i hid it.
That continued to break me. And i allowed it to put a wedge between my Lord and I.
I saw it all along...it wasn't a surprise to me.
But now...now is the time to heal. And it is a slow process......I have soooo much to be thankful for and i need to start living like I AM thankful for them.
There are still things that i don't understand.....but I'm okay with it....and even though i went through a hard time i see how strong it is making me now. strength is Christ Jesus.
I also see how strong our hardships have in turn made my marriage...I would never want to go through them again...but i'm thankful we did.....and I am thankful for what the Lord has made of us!!!!
anyway enough rambling.....just felt the need to exclaim that.....Christ has made me whole.......and for once in a long time....I fell it...I feel whole. Praise Jesus!

-Lyss

On being open...

I...am generally not an open person unless i truly trust you. And even then it takes a lot to let people see all of me. But once i have found those people whom i can love and trust I hold on very tight to them.
I saw....once again...last night just how blessed I am with the husband that God has so graciously provided for me. He is...amazing. He is my buddy, my confidant, my fellow debater, my fellow adventurer, my "lets just stay in bed and watch a movie...maybe order pizza" buddy. He is by best friend. And i see more and more every day how important that is.
I honestly can't imagine being in a marriage with anyone other that your best friend. Having a bond beyond sex is seemingly inconceivable to our modern society, and I don't know why.
I am looking beyond the same sex marriages and the incredibly high divorce rate that almost exceeds the marriage rate. Beyond those things....(even though i think them most terrible!!!)...we come to the simple, healthy, biblical marriage between a man and a woman, a husband and a wife, even that has become dirty. Marriage is more of a cuss word now that a word representing something we should cherish. How sad that marriage has become an afterthought....something that comes after people have lived together for 7 years or after the birth of their 4th child. Instead of congratulations when learning of an engagement or upcoming marriage...more often than not....come the question of "Why?". Now that why could either be a "What did they get themselves into, and why do they have to get married now?" Or "Whats the purpose of getting married.....you can live the life without the ties"
anyway....I know i'm ranting....but i just don't get it. I don't understand peoples logic. I don't understand or like what marriage has become to both the secular and the christian world. We should be ashamed.

But....
I praise God for the Husband i have....and the marriage i have....though its not perfect it is made wonderful in the Lord.

hmmm....okay off to make dinner

monday...bloody monday...

Përshëndetje

thats hi in albanian:P


So on a lighter note...I have something wonderful to boast about:P
.over a yummy lunch of red robin french fries and boca burgers...my hubby told me hes ready to be a daddy! Ohhh goodness! I can't explain how wonderful it was to hear those words. I never thought it would come now....if you would have asked me six months ago if i thought he would say those words now I probably would have laughed at you....and then cried.
Jon has grown and changed so much in the last year....as have I...I know. We have gone through so many things....SO many....things i would never want to do again....but i am glad we had to because i see how strong it makes us now. I could not ask for a better husband, I am so blessed! He is a strong reliable loving man with a huge heart and a great sense of humor. I think we mesh pretty well. And now...he wants to be my baby-daddy:P
So now....the waiting game....we wait and wait.....and as each month comes we are faced with the reality of....Maybe. Ugh...i hate the maybe game....before it was totally different than it should be now. So...babies on the mind all the time...ALL THE TIME! haha...I pray that the Lord give me control over my emotions...and longing to be a mommy....and that the disappointment that will probably come month to month wont discourage me to much.
anyway...off to bed...I have a terrible headache...and can't take it anymore.
ttfn
(the above picture is Jon with his youngest niece....see hes cute with a little ones isn't he:)

Newness...

Okay...so I started over.
Back to blogging just like the old days:P
There is so much to tell...i just have to work back into writing my thoughts down.
I'll work on it though.